In Genesis, God provided Adam and Eve with a more perfect covering than they could provide for themselves.
Then, He provided safety and deliverance for Noah and his family.
Later, He provided Himself a lamb for Abraham to sacrifice.
In Exodus, He provided for the children of Israel manna from Heaven, water from a rock, and shoes that didn't wear out.
He provided David with victory over the giant.
He provided Solomon with wisdom to rule.
He provided Elijah the sustenance the go on, and a remnant that hadn't bowed to Baal for encouragement.
He provided Nehemiah a vision.
He provided Jonah a big fish, and shade.
He provided Job restoration.
He provided Mary and Joseph a stable.
He provided the fishermen a great catch.
He provided thousands a meal.
He provided Peter forgiveness.
At the cross, He provided perfect atonement for sin.
At the tomb, He provided victory of Death and Hell.
In the Upper Room He provided the promised Holy Spirit.
To countless saints He has provided the courage to stand in the midst of great persecution.
He provides peace to the troubled heart, love to the lonely, peace to the troubled, comfort to the hurting, joy to the sorrowful, grace to the unworthy, mercy to the sinner, wisdom to the unwise, understanding to the simple, and more and more and more.
He is Jehovah Jireh (the Lord provides).
In the midst of trouble, sorrow, trials, or pain, it's hard to see God as our provider. So often we give credit to God only for allowing things in life to go the way we DON'T want them to go. It is so easy to allow the flesh to focus on what we feel is not being provided.
Let me rephrase:
It is so easy FOR ME to allow MY flesh to focus on what I feel is not being provided. It is so easy to for me to feel overwhelmed. It is so easy to slip into despair over all the weight of ministry to kids that I truly love. It is so easy to feel helpless when they are hurting. It is so easy to want to the throw the towel in.
We live in a broken world. When sin entered the world, man turned his right of dominion over to the enemy. Sin affected creation as much as it has affected humanity. So there is suffering, brokeness, and hard times. When these things come upon us, the temptation is to drop our head in defeat and give in to the pressures of life.
I don't mind admitting that halfway through this week things have felt pretty overwhelming from a ministry standpoint. Two different families. Two very similar tragedies. And in the midst of it all kids who look to those of us who minister for answers.
I am ashamed to admit that, as I heard about the second tragedy today, I felt so overwhelmed and completely not up to the task of ministry before me that I considered, for the first time in over a decade of ministry, dropping out. What can I do? How can I help? I am unable to be effective in these times.
In the darkness He provides light.
In despair He provides hope.
"...afflicted in every way, BUT NOT CRUSHED, perplexed, BUT NO DESPAIRING, persecuted, BUT NOT FORSAKEN, struck down, BUT NOT DESTROYED..."
Jehovah Jireh. The Lord is my provider.
Once again, the enemy went to far. He attempted to deceive me beyond what I was willing to believe. Give up ministry? Not on your life. I don't do ministry out of a sense of duty. I don't do ministry because there's nothing else I can do. I don't even minister based on a calling. I minister to students because I love them.
The Lord provided me determination. Determination to stand against the pain, to stand against the confusion, to stand for my kids and the kids of my community.
If the Lord Himself will encourage me in the midst of discouragement, how much more will He provide what I need.
I confess in recent weeks my focus shifted in the wrong direction. In dealing not only spiritually, but I truly believe psychologically with different things that I chose to ignore or put to the side, my heart was once again burdened with the weight of despair.
BUT MY GOD PROVIDES FOR HIS CHILDREN. He has not forsaken me, He has not dismissed me, He has not finished with me. Jesus Christ is my advocate.
While I must still be willing to properly deal with things that I never truly dealt with, I must start with casting my cares on God, because He cares for me, and He will provide ALL that I need.
He has proven Himself faithful time and time again, and as the song says, "He'll do it again."
When situations, circumstances, failures, and mistakes seem to overwhelm....He will provide.
Blessed be the name of the Lord.